You know those days when you wake up and it feels like the beginning of an epic movie titled “You Against A World Of Bullshit”? Today is that movie day. Here are a list of my epic adventures and guest stars:

• Get awoken at 5am with no electricity in half the house-the half with all the shit we need to use like washer/dryer, office, air conditioner
• The cell phone from hell that refuses to turn off or on and the battery refuses to come out
• The car that refuses to start
• The leaky faucet
• The crashed computer
• The clogged sink that burps when you walk by
• The smoke detector that continues to BEEEEEEP after the battery has been removed
• The sick dog who keeps shaking her head and slinging snot 5 feet in every direction
• The well dog that decides to eat a fucking frog and puke it in the bed at 6am
• The husband that works night shift now and missed all of this excitement and BONUS you have no way to get in contact with him because his work email sends you to the spam folder and you have no landline phone

I am going to find a sword and a cape and I am going to OWN this motherfucking movie in about 10 minutes when I completely lose my mind.

My interview went well today. Much more in depth than I had anticipated but I felt comfortable with everything they threw at me. I got double teamed (mind out of the gutter kids!) with the manager and one of the big wigs but I really didn’t let it phase me. I feel like I have a pretty good shot at it but its not the slam dunk I thought it might be. They did tell me that they have one more interview to conduct tomorrow but they said they will have an answer by Thursday or Friday of this week.

I could bitch about the job responsibilities or the pay but honestly if they hire me I will be over the fucking moon happy. I have to admit I am a little nervous about my abilities since I have been unemployed for 9 months but I am sure it will all come back to me. It better or I will be in trouble.

Thanks for all the well wishes! You guys rock!!!

I HAVE A MOTHERFUCKING JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW!!!!!!

JOB INTERVIEW!!

WOO HOO!!!

They told me on the phone I am their top pick. Oh, please don’t let them be lying to me or I will flip the fuck out. Please Please job fairies please sprinkle me with job dust and let me knock this interview out of the park!!!!!

Today was my 13yr old nephew’s birthday party. He wanted to go skating and play laser tag with some of his friends. I made him a cake and met him and the fam at the “adventure” place. Holy shitballs! It was like a zoo and it was so loud I couldn’t here myself think. (Insert crack about old age here.) You know what’s even more awesome? I got puked on. Twice. And guess who wore her fave flip flops and had blue slushie puked all over her toes? Woo hoo!! That’s a memory I will carry with me always. Good times, good times.

I went to Charlotte this weekend to stay with one of my oldest and dearest friends and her mom. It was a needed break and alot of fun. We ended up going to some awesome restaurants and drinking alot and they paid for 99% of everything which was a fabulous treat for me. That being said,  I ended up having a complete meltdown Saturday night. Just out of nowhere we were playing poker and my friend said something that rubbed me wrong. When I called her out on it she backed down which upset me. I wanted to know the truth. I don’t like feeling like walls are building up. I have realized that the people you love can slip away easily if you don’t communicate and her unwillingness to open up to me hurt so much. I just lost it. Crying and sobbing and trying to explain to her that if we don’t talk openly and honestly that eventually we will lose touch and I didn’t want to throw away 22 yrs of friendship. All of that led to all of my emotional overload from the last year and I just completely broke. It was the most I have cried, sobbed, snotted, hiccuped in probably 5 years. And do you know, these 2 women who I love so much held my hands, stroked my hair, encouraged me to let it all out. They understood completely and without question where I was coming from and they let this raw part of me come out and they comforted me while we talked through all of it. I cannot explain the emotions I felt that night or that I feel now. The feeling of safety I felt with them. It was ok that I was broken. It was ok that I was hurting. It was ok that I was confused and depressed. They gave me the love and encouragement I need to start picking up the pieces (that I thought I had already picked up).

Don’t underestimate friendships. I did. I was scared to let it all out for so long but I am glad I did. I can’t rebuild me without help and support and I am so thankful to know I don’t have to bottle it all up anymore.

I just realized that I am finally doing Tumblr right.

No pants, beer in hand, music blaring, me giggling about tumblrstuffs.

All I need now is a cat and a bacon shitting unicorn.

• The hubs has been put on night shift for awhile. Todaynight is his first night shift in about 12 years. Should be interesting. I am trying to keep the same hours as him right now since I am still woefully unemployed. I am tired and its not even midnight. A nap might be in order.
• I dropped a 2 liter drink on my pinkie toe tonight. Fucker hurts. Black is a good toe color, right?
• We bought a 4 stroke weed eater and I tested it out this weekend on our wildly untamed front yard. Works great but after an hour of weed annihilation my arm gave out. I am such a pussy.
• Still having family dilemmas and assorted dilemmas but that is life and it will all sort itself out eventually.
• (toe throbbing)  (toe throbbing)  (toe throbbing)
• The grocery store was deserted at 10:30 tonight which was awesome. The less people I see, the better off I am.
• One of the dogs ate 2 empty toilet paper rolls. Hope they enjoyed it going in, cause coming out is gonna suck.
• My emotions lately are like the wheel on the Price Is Right….spinning, spinning, spinning, you never know where they are gonna land. Hope I hit the $1 soon.
• Time to do laundry. Who wants to help???

(Source: littleangrygirl)

Dear Heather,

It has been awhile since we talked. I am getting kind of tired of you ignoring me and focusing all your attention on others. No amount of time spent on other people is going to make you happy. Stop avoiding conversations with me. We have alot to decide and figure out. Blocking out pain isn’t helping. Lying to me isn’t helping either. You cannot find happiness if you don’t look for it. Stop hiding. Move forward. Take responsibilty for your actions and stop being such a whiney baby. STOP FUCKING CARING WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU. Stop making excuses. Open your heart and your mind and find what will make you happy. Focus your attention inward. Appreciate the people that bring you joy and let the rest of them go. TELL the people you love how much they mean to you every day. Don’t give up. Don’t give up. Don’t give up. Keep pushing forward. Keep moving. Love yourself. You are worth it.

Love,

Me